My friend Jodi shared her New York trip pictures with me today. I asked if I could use some for my blog. They took a bunch of pictures of Lady Liberty but this is the one I liked. Did Lady Liberty just say "Screw with me and I'll stick this torch up your ass!" I can only hear right out of one ear, maybe I heard her wrong.I didn't want to think about 9..11 this year just like I didn't want to hear about it 5 years ago. 5 years ago my life was a totally out of wack. I had just made my ex husband move out of my house, my daughter Lauren was living with my mother, I had started a new job and I was trying to explain why daddy didn't live here anymore to my sons. I got a phone call that day at 9 something and the person asked me what city I was in. Why I asked and then I got the news. At first I thought about the Oklahoma City bombing and that 9/11 was a white boys sick joke. When I got home that night from work I gave myself a 1 hour time limit on watching the news. I don't think I could take more then 30 minutes. After getting the boys off to bed I realized I was shaking. My life had gone to hell and now the world. I cryed, read a book and some how went to bed.
Two days later while at work some nut around Bloomington Indiana decide to take out his personal plane. I don't remember if it was 2 fighter jets or 3 forced him to the small Bloomington airport a few miles away. I won't even bring up the noise but watching jets making hard turns right above my head flipped me out. My whole body was shaking again. That Friday the place I worked at fired over 100 people. I didn't get fired and I was Thankful. I was also still shaking.
That Sunday I went to church to hear a bunch of people talk about taking care of their own. Yes the good old rednecks from Indiana had visions of Red Dawn. Well I stopped shaking that day. I got pissed. I was Thankful I was alive and didn't understand people talking about guns in church. I really couldn't handle it and I haven't been back to church since then.
5 years ago my life was a mess but I'm Thankful I wasn't in New York City. That's the truth. The people that did live through those tuff days are stronger then me.
I'd like to thank Jodi & Bill for the picture!
Be safe...
2 comments:
I happened to be in NYC on 9/11 and I'm always interested in what people experienced in other parts of the country at that time. The thing about your church gave me chills.
Sometimes people tell me that I must be really strong and that they could never deal with what I did on that day. I tell them that we all have amazing reserves of inner strength and we just don't know what we can handle until we have to. Personally, I don't know that I could handle a seperation and job insecurity like that. You are one heck of a lady to have gotten yourself and your kids through that! Those are the kinds of things that the evening news doesn't run stories on. I think that's a shame because your heroism in getting throughthe hard times is every bit as important to your kids as a firefighter's on 9/11.
Ok Meesh your giving me the big head. But trust me I'm no Firefighter. This dudes Rock and they went to the rock for the City of New York.
I was thinking about what you had written when I wrote this. That time was part of my book of pain.
Now I should say that I hooked up with the present Husband 2 weeks after that. :) So I wasn't all that big and brave. Oh crap, one month after 9/11 I bought myself a pair of black leather pants. (why?)
Be safe...
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